since kelli is ready to hold a gun to my head, i may as well write up the bio.
well.. to start i was born on july 8th (nope, you aren't getting the year) and i was a premature baby. i think i was almost two months early, but it's probably closer to a month and a half. my mother and i almost died, and we've both had health problems since. i once asked if she ever regretted the fact that she had me because it layed her up in the hospital for sixth months, and she said she'd do it all over again if she had to. anyway. i never went to preschool. my mother and father taught me what i needed to know at home for the first five years of my life. i liked it at home, but i guess i did get a little lonely considering that i am an only child. my grandmother has always spoiled me, and that started early in my life. i love her to death.
i started my first year at school right after i turned five. the first day of kindergarten i didn't want to go, and i clung to mom's cardoor and crying my eyes out. it was probably a pitiful and cute sight all at the same time. when i got in class, i remember not knowing what "sitting indian style" was and such because i had never gone to preschool. i was really bad in class most of the time, so mom started to bribe me with video games to make me be good. it worked.. especially since i was playing video games at two and a half. sometime around this point i was being goofy and decided to sit on a rocking chair backwards, and i had to go the emergency room because i hit the corner of a table and split my face open. i didn't make friends easily, and when i did they betrayed me; even that early of an age. somehow it still ends up that way today. i met who probably is my closest friend, kelli, in kindergarten. it was quite hilarious the first day after school when our parents all came to pick us up... because my mother and her mother go way back. which is pretty cool, so it's relatively easy for me to see kelli. i was always sick when i was younger... i think i missed like, 40 days of kindergarten. which is nuts, but they let me pass. in first grade, i met a girl named cassie..or carrie... i can't remember which. at the end of the year she ended up being such a freak...*like i have room to talk* and was just a bitch, basically. i also remember going to a guy's birthday party.. i think it was jessie's, and i was the only girl there. my mom stayed. we were six, what did we know then? but now i realize why, because i almost broke my arm there. i don't remember much of second grade either.. nor third. fourth grade is when i started choir, which was great. but the teacher scared me. once, she got pissed off and threw desks around. i stayed in choir in fifth grade, too. at this point, i had realized how many bitches were in the prep crowd, and i started to drift away from them and wear baggier clothing and such... i was so preppy in elementary it was nuts. i made mostly good grades, and never really got into trouble. i had quite a few friends at this point too.
in sixth grade i was total gangster. i quit choir, didn't try hard enough in school, and cussed like a sailor. i lost a friend that year, but thankfully she's come back. my mom had cancer this year.. and that really changed so many views upon things. she had breast cancer in...october was it..? i don't remember, but i know she had lung cancer in january. that's when she started chemo, and things got really rough. my grades and attendance dropped then, too. i started to wear a lot more black, and started to get picked on by the stupid popular girls in school. i was called so many things, and it made me so depressed, and i seriously was considering switching to a private school. i basically lost any hope and faith in religion this year. in seventh grade, i went full scale "goth", started listening to heavy metal, and pissed off quite a few people. i wasn't as depressed, but i was just being stupid. my true friends stuck to me however. in eighth grade my depression started to kick in. i think i met nicole and katie in this year, and christa too, but guys, correct me if i'm wrong on this one. i started to get into anime, too.
ninth grade i moderately cheered up, but high school was such a shock to me. an old contact of mine, jon, started to talk to me again sometime in this year. i love him to death, and he is a sweetheart. also, i met so many people that year, and they are so close. i think this is the year i started to get really close to christa, and she's helped me through some insanely tough times. i became closer to chasity and diana because of our stupid french class... but my teacher that i had taught my father, so i kinda had to be nice to her. but she was cool.. just couldn't teach. she retired later that year. i also met a student teacher from my english class.. she is an amazing woman, and i still talk to her to this day through emails. she's helped me through a lot of the hard times, too. my sophomore year, i was in severe depression.. and i really don't know why. i guess all the sickness around me. i used to hide out and make sure no one could find me because i really didn't want to be bothered at school. i'd wait for the bell to ring and go to class.. and never speak a word that day unless i had to. my health problems got bad this year because of what the doctors think is either anxiety or multiple sclerosis. but anyway.. i had bad muscle spasms because of this medicine called toracan or something, i don't know how it's spelled. but don't take it, because i had to be rushed to the hospital emergency room from school in a wheelchair, and i thought i was going to die. it felt like my neck was just totally going to snap in two and such. after that, i've been constantly dizzy... i went homebound in october or so from school, and then after the christmas holidays, i went back to school to take midterms, but i couldn't stay. i was just too dizzy. i am still homebound today, and i hope i'll be able to go back to school next year. i was taking zoloft, but now i'm taking buspar and paxil.. and i don't think it's working. so i get to see about getting a spinal tap for multiple sclerosis.. and i think that's really up to date. if you want to know what's going on beyond this bio, just check the journal. i'll be updating it daily, more than likely.